what I feel (:

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Dear god, I don't know why I write this text right now. I just tired with the fuckin problem in my worse life. I can't tell anyone about what I fell now, because nobody's understand me. only you that understand me. only you that give me power to undergo this life. my life is so hard. I can't tell with my mouth. yeah.. maybe that the reason why I write this text.
Maybe this time I am not tell you about my parents. I love them so much and I know that you have to know that. God, believe me. from the bottom of my soul I love my brother, my cousin and my boyfriend. I really love them. but in the other side, I'am so dissapointed with them. I hate my self because I can't changes anything that happend :'( I just want changes they are be a good boy who always do all of your behest. THEY ARE SMOKERS :'( I have told them to stop smoke and try to be a good boy, but they're can't. I just can give it all to you. only you that can change them.
"Every troubles that I find in my life, it makes me more closer to you" thanks god because you have to wake me up from this lies of life. god please please please changes Dicki Andiransyah, Alam Dikri Alfath and Muhammad Ibrahim Adam be good boy :) amin..amin..amin.. and please always protect them everywhere and anytime :') I believe you can do that :*